Friday, September 11, 2015

For Josh

Heads were spinning, your typewriter clicks
The genius pouring, outta your wits
Linda Blair vomiting; “You Cunting Whore” ***
Like a metronome tocking, begging for more!

As I selfishly tended, my everyday chores
Trying to fix desperately, what I didn’t adore
Keeping up the mask, permeating my face
Wiping reality, off of it’s stage.

Where, under same roof
Bunked beds stacked high,
I remember that night,
We both said “Let’s Fly”

Bolting out of NC, in Favor of York
So many firsts, we’d gradually uncork;
Pinball Wizards, Acid Queens
A Seven Hour Fantasia on national themes.

Singing Sweeny’s meat pies,
We belted and dreamed,
Playing the white way,
Our souls alive, beamed.

You did it buddy, you beat us to the punch
You Tom Sawyered your way, aheada’ the bunch.
 “You’re the perfect combination of Innocence & Spunk”
The New York Times heralded, (and not to debunk!)

Imprint made,
On everyones lives
Reminding us all,
How quickly time flies.

I’m thankful most
For the brief time we shared;
That Toast we made
Atop a’ Times Square;
“This is it”, We screamed, “The now, right here!
Take it for it’s worth - Laugh in the face of fear!”
Need to remind myself daily, of then
Young and bright, Cocky Wise Men!

Oh Prodigal Son, you’ll surely be missed
In this physical plane, I’ll forever remiss
That dinner we planned, that never took place

Table set now, in The Light’s sacred grace.


*** This is a reference to the Musical Version of "The Exorcist" Josh wrote. 

Tuesday, August 11, 2015

Get Up Again / Time To Fly

In the thick of it,
Like the mud and the stick in it
You can’t seem to get up, out
But like a warrior, you fight
The plaguing
doubt.

A nice little gift,
Given from the stars,
Packaged neatly
With wounds and scars.

Process, a part of
The race to rise, fly above
Gracious, to the edge
Knowing full well,
The blossoming sedge.

Of the Rib, We are cast
Back to back, at half mast
Wanting quickly, to turn around
Whiplash,
That Crash and Burn Sound.

Only then can you stand,
Eye to Eye, Hand to hand
Cry for another, with so much heart
One foot in front the other,
You begin a new start.

You get up again,
Over and Over
Next time, clearer,
Full Disclosure.
Get up again.

Next October.




Tuesday, July 21, 2015

Alchemy and Exile


The sun set,
From henceforth, I beget 
All the lust and Courage
Liquid 
I Find myself 
Remiss.
Is all this, that is?

What you can't see
Won't get you in trouble 
Feeling my way 
In a deep dark bubble,
Desperation wealth
Black holed drowned,
Uncanny Stealth.
Pretentiously Profound. 

Driven out, Miles away 
Trying desperately 
To find my way,
At this point,
My only hope
Turn metal to gold
light it up,
smoke that dope.

I've been here before,
Under these stars 
I've wondered these hills,
been surfing on Mars
Every time I try to make it back,
I get stuck
in the crack

of Lack.

Surviving The Reign

Ofttimes we just need, someone averring;
“It’s okay to feel that way, I understand you’re fearing”
Like a hallowed hole  
In your ozone layer,
Piercing your soul,
Like a dragon slayer.

Now I contemplate, imagine
What might be, If loss
Wasn’t real or unfathomed.
A distorted reality, someone else’ lives
Another planet;
Everyone survives.

But really, what gives
Oh, This physical sieve
Where our spirit morphs,
In this continuum, we live.

Purple pills to ease the pain,
Gross intoxicants, polluting your reign.
Dragging crutches, chairs that are wheeled
All those pain meds - from vigor they
Steal.
It is US who is sick
Laid up in our Beds,
Grief stricken long faces,
Awaiting our death.

If we could see now,
Them dancing in bliss,
Surrounded by love
No longer remiss.
Like lawyers in, the upper worlds
Adjudicating our actions, as they unfurl
Praying for success, unconditional love
As we stumble and fumble in this grey dark world.

Transform our pain,
Into celebration,
Wish them well,
Their next incarnation.
No matter the hurt
Or burden we feel,
We’re new again,
Because they were real.




CHANGE, THE SAME


Pry
Open my eyes that insist,
Pain 
Why
Ask questions? answers
Same. 
Shy,
Nerves shot, cellular screen
Blamed. 
Cry,
Am I who doesn't dream
Named? 
Sty
Twitching. Sewing torn up
Fame 
Eyes
Watching, destiny deemed
Tamed
Fried.

Chasingcorrectionfalsetoaffectionperpetualneglectionteaching 

Imperfection.