Drownin' In My Seat

Can you feel it, What I'm Sayin' ?

look, here it is, I ain't playin'

I'm drownin' here, in My seat

treadin' water - head to feet,

My attention seeker is INCOMPLETE!

I need to run, but I am still

fighting a battle of my own free will

Something to be said

goin' on in my crafty head

Goals are mistaken?

clearly I've been taken

'round and 'round, same ole shit

I've heard it all before, yet still here I sit.

Whatthefuck! to waste my time?

I just wanna end this 12 hour day - unwind !

I notice you, notice my asking

this practice is so terribly taxing

relative of theory

patience of practice

going through the process

I cut my losses

How long is 

this dessert storm

God please tell me, 

42 year is NOT the norm

Back then it was ok

they lived forever

I am nearing 31 of 198

there is pain in this pleasure

Something will break soon

I know it will

gotta' keep on pushin'

feed on the thrill

My kids keep me 

still

So I will sit

in my Louis seat

strapped down tight 

until my process is complete.

My New Favorite Thing (Not no.9)

Here is something

hasn't been done before

something to talk about 

that is so groundbreaking 

evermore

Something to applaud

a little show  - made it to broad

uptown from down

cross from hell's kitchen

it isn't a Wiccan 

ough - I mean Wicked

it's called [title of show]

stop asking me the name

That's what it's called, I KNOW

I can't even describe it

you've gotta just see

something original

just a small fee

90 minutes, jam packed

quick enough - you won't get 

your volvo jacked

Two guys, with a dream

Writing about writing
About something they write
Right there on sight

What happens when 

your dreams start to come true

challenges arise then

it all gets away from you

Who you're real friends are

what have they done

they have been there beside you 

through the thick and the none

I pray folks flock to see it

that it sells like mad

I will see it again and again

I liked it so bad  [good]

It inspired me to [write]

that's what I do [tight]

not for you [flight]

but for who [fight]

 

I feel like they're my best bud -

the dudes that churned out this non-dud

Hunter & Jeff, respectively

fought so good to create collectively

they had their differences, but all done effectively

Bread of the Battle

Pushing through
fight for truth
Desire the fruit
Of Eternal youth
A sacred tree
Climbing Me

Battle the brink

for clarity, I think

Don't give in

not to this, it's taught

Fortune is blessed, earned by wrought

Battle is thrill, with Light saber fought

I want to taste
The sweetest bread
Don't give in to 

illusions in my head

Struggle to Sacrifice
the tree of daat
Giving up what,
I don't really want

Force the shield
Don't give in
Gotta keep on fighting
Until the bitter end

A dew you will savor
Every last drop
Until you don't appreciate
Anything you've got

you will start to settle
For something much less
But you will know then
You have failed your test
Request more asking
What have I done
To be more responsible
For everyone

for the bread of the battle

doesn't come without cost

Our greatest pleasures

will not be lost

How have I taken greater responsibility for the world ?

Another

Can you see yourself
In another
Can you be blind to the chaos
Of another
Do it again and again
To another
Get up from your trip
Off another
Build your tollerance
For another
Eliminate the "other"
Be together.

The Reflection In My Chalice

Salivating from the reflection in my chalice
I see the silhouette of a king in his palace.
Within this cup, endless potential
I am talking kingdoms here, abundance pours torrential
Vengance is, at far distance
Teacher nearby, insisting diligence
Creativity flows, pouring from the brow
Onlookers and admirers, question the how.
This king is not the master, of his gifts and talents
However, his artistry requires - precision and balance
I want to learn from him, bear the fruits of committed meditation

I observe him carefully, begging emulation 

or does he mimic me, reflection from above

paradoxical climbing, tree of life thereof

Marriage in mind, Mastery of intuition

knowledge and reason, an alchemical magician

Floating effortlessly, illusion to you

Riding life's tides

If only we knew.

Coney Island Warp

Broke down desperation

No Coincidence, it's the n'd of the line

You should be warned

Carnival Rides

emblazoned with danger signs

Abundance of sun, no protection shield

a delirium it will, inevitably yield

Numb the effect, with cotton candy

be sure to have, a hammer handy

Broken boardwalk planks

imagine that shit, if you were tanked ?

Career Kareoke is "Bob's" way to go

singing barry white high flyin' solo

sellin' water beer soda, for a buck or five

Fishin' for luck on the underside

just tryin' to stay alive.

A familiar face, from a while ago

freaks me out enough to scream

"Let's Go"

 This old photograph, explains a lot

this was the place then, now it is not

1940 -something, in a heat wave

Looks like what we'd call today, an ecstacy rave.

thousands of people, stoic smiles

 all you can see, for miles and miles

no nickel wasted, blue collar labors

totally digging, each others neighbors

What are you holding onto?

 Your Gramma's Ferris?

She Let go

she now beggs, dare care us?

This place no longer

has it's vibe.

Let it go.

Let the memory thrive.

Innocuous Healer

Don’t take it personally

It isn’t about you

Although you feel it strongly now

There is something you can do

 

Imagine where it must come from

Pointing finger in your direction

The sadness within him, pain to deal

no sense to know 

the need of self reflection

 

So much sorrow, so much self hate,

impossible to decipher

what is on his plate

hiding behind  his pompous baritone

helping hundreds who trespass

within feet of his zone 

for a second he enters

into your life

to instigate your every nerve

to trip your every vice

 

it is your blessing

to gain perspective

your opportunity

none of it's real

including his objective

 

It all feeds in

To something in your visage

Stop worrying how others

View the junk in your garage

 

Put the mask down

Stop being so defensive

Take a break from your mood

quit being so pensive

Thank you for the opportunity

innocuous as it was

though hard to see in the moment

you can't imagine the healing it does

Red Heifer / Purification

What if u could sanctify that which is considered unsacred, unpure?
Would u fear the masses, From which side would be the lure?

is a war of worlds, certain to collide ?

That's what happens when people have something to hide.

THEY DIVIDE

Science and spirit are one in the same
Desire the wild hoarse, but o

nly to tame
What if you could bring people

 together?
Tie up loose ends, wouldn't you rather ?
without judgement or lamentation
I guess it begins with me, effect reverberation
A choice that I make, to know what is right
To eliminate space, refusing the fight
Sacred grace is something created
Through compassion and love not violence and hatred.

Dancing Queen's in Buenos Aires New Years 2007

The Heart Chakra of the World

The pulse of the world

beating from within 

the sound of silent

the vibration violent.

On the other side of this wall, special forces yield

The holiest of holies is where they were all were healed

Anodyne spirit's fill the vast expanse

I was moved to tears here, put into a trance

I want to take in all that came before me, at the seed

stand there, be a channel, for those who are in need

"Give light and the people will find their way"

Unison of The Sun

My inner child, has been healed

the danger behind me, complete of yield

We have climbed the wall of battle, to overcome great strife

I am standing here before you, renewed with breath of life

19 steps behind me, walking balanced on tight rope

The sun above me shines ablaze and gives me peace and hope.

A challenge has been overcome

a fear has been undone

I stand here firmly in my place 

with love and unbridled wisdom

I am not a slave to my animal

the sacrifice - no longer abysmal

I am of honor and of peace

of dignity, love and here to please

Yet,  not at the sake of evil dis-ease.

The smile on my face,

 is a relick that I bear

History is behind me, in the past 

that I cannot un-stare

on the path I am on now, 

I must move further, further along

I must be of honor and of service to

 those who don't belong

The faces of gentle children

the heart of a jaded adult

the sight of it all moves me greatly;

cause to catapult.

launching rockets of desire

in direction

of perfection

I am a virgo after all

(no cause for blame, if dare I fall)

it is a fierce correction.

to dare will not to be necessary

I am not afraid of the adversary

I am guided by the light

the sun

the moon 

the stars of bright

I'm not a slave or a victim

to anyones dogma, vice, or dictum

Firmly in my prowess

I am unwavering, strong but cowed by callous

humbled by my very place

I am fearful of reflection of my very face

knowing that the choice is within my grasp

I have to move on quickly, anxious and steadfast.

I am done here now  - I must move on

my spirit is empowered

comfort is, for the weak

pride is for, the coward

spirit calm

no harm done.

I am content and safe

In unison of the sun

Under Florescent Light

I'm Sorry 

but I've got this feeling I can not 

escape

Friends of mine are

 locked up 

and succomed to voilence 

and 

hate

What's up with their fate ?

These guys are 

at 

The top of their game

One a fashion designer

Destined for fame

other dude

  simply point blank

Brilliant, through and through 

especially with the bank

He can calculate and litigate

Hook you like fish bait

don't really get 

the institution

justice game?

 human pollution

You put these people away when there's so much more to blame

Give them resources

Get them help

Everyone fucks up their game

every now and again

be the cause

Keeping them locked up

Irrelevet to the universal laws

Karma is  bitch - enough

You gotta interfere? 

make it tough?

Peace Boys.

Make the most of the moment

something awaits you 

on the other side

for sure you know it

a new opportunity

no chance to hide

fresh start

make right

sleep well

tonight

under 

florescent light

The illusive behavior of my opponent

You have tricked me you little thief
You've tried to rob me of my soul- complete with grief.

Masking the faces of children in need
You have  dis·a·vowed me to settle, to hold me hostage by your greed
confused and corrupt, Your illusion is petrifying
undeniably Intoxicating, forever trying.

But I am through.  

waiting for clear evidence

I will keep my options open, engage in heavy duty abstinence

looking for a trace
To peek it's pretty face
I will gladly step down from your good grace.
You are no longer in control, 

you will try to grab me 

make me think I am whole.

But I can see with clairity
Your fucked up disguise is not true charity

Fakularity

 your fakeularity is  dependant on what?

Pop culture junkie riding high in tabloid smut.

You settin out on your walk

Thinking your fooling everyone with your trash talk

   That prance 

that glance

struttin' your Prada

with close inspection, it's clearly a nada

Your phoney attitude, beggin for attention

until someone blows your cover then who is bitchin?

be who you are

no one cares that you're a star

Transparent Situations

Transparent situations
Discomfortable illusions
Intoxicating bruises
Self serving
Others unnerving
Vaulnerable what
Passion serving
Trying luck
Turning glances
Second chances
Bang big
Now what?
I'm fucked
Captive duty
Relentless beauty
Caged cocks
Battling duality
Common denominator
Guilty perpetraitor
Enevitable ensuing
Coldplay seducing
Souls merging
Couldn't come
Satan looseing
More desiring
Required rewireing
Light manifested
Drama enlisted
Stranger nolonger
Eternity ponder
Magnetic stronger
Sacrifice wander
Bounding tight
Discovery night
Columbus right
Family fright
Unconcious right
Delayed reaction
Utter dissatisfaction
Unification unbreakable
Truth irresistable
Influincing external
Love refferal
Moment contingent
Be in it.

Oh JOY !

Oh dear bard, give me some Joy

I will share with you mine and you will enjoy.
Her demeanor is insatiable, sure not to annoy

Her energy impalpable that’s for sure
Her loving touch, simply demure

With fiery wit and crayola aura

Be careful not to open her box of Pandora

Her opinions are not necessarily torah

That is for sure-a

Help me out Mr. Shakespeare

Enlighten me, and be very clear !

Here you go for your friend

With her I lived in joy; our wealth increased The Comedy of Errors:

With the sweet silent hours of marriage joys 

King Richard III

My dreams presage some joyful news at hand: Romeo and Juliet

Were kisses all the joys in bed, Various poetry / XIX

The gods give you joy, sir, heartily! Coriolanus

The father, all whose joy is nothing else The Winter's Tale

That if it would but apprehend some joy, A Midsummer Night's Dream

Double Seven and an 8

A stutter from Mumbai
Above Columbus hovers
Basement stacks down here
Wounded cracks over there
Green feed
Supporting need
Across the water
From distant shores
But here
I am compelled to believe
There something so much
greater than imagined
Before I can't go back to
Ahead I will renew
A promise of fulfillment
Flocking seaguls everpresent
Tandoori nights
Humid fires
Burning lights
Idiosyncratic desire
Here in the circle of Columbus
I sit patiently for my abundance
True in farce
Feeling honesty sparse
Vague shadows peer from
around
Steering clear of momentous sound
Awkward silence
eavesdroppers listening
I can't hear but I am wishing
That I could be led down
Magick and masala
Secrets of the world
So simple as such
That I cannot complicate
My life so much
More of all the this
full of all the that
Columbus ashore
Central park is a roar
Double seven and an eight
I have made dull,
Blessed
And
Great

What's with the name, dude ?

Facebook is a phenomenon. Really.

Due to this modern miracle,  I have been re-introduced to friends of mine from long, long, long, ago. All of whom knew me as Bobby. They have all been very inquisitive about the change in name. I posted the below article on my former blog and have decided to reprint it here.

If you wanna know .. just ask. I am happy to answer any questions you have. 

Back in September, I had the merit to receive my Hebrew name, Daniel, and I have made the choice to go through with using it. I know that it's gonna take some time to get used to. Understandably so - most of you with whom I have not spent much time with in recent years, would naturally have the image of "Bobby" imprinted into your consciousness: The fun, crazy, ostentatious, in your face  (at times bitchy and abrasive) person that I used to be is slowly (painfully s l o w) dissolving . I am on a process to becoming a more sound individual. Rome wasn't built in a day (or a week, or a year, or a few years .. lol).

 I have been on this spiritual path for nearly the last 5 years that has led me to a point in my life in which my priorities and desires  not so focused on myself, but more concerned with the world around me. I have become obsessed with my superman complex in an attempt to save the world (insert kum-by-ahh here .. lol .) 

The Zohar, an ancient commentary on the old testament of the bible, Say's that the merit of receiving a spiritual name implies that I acquire the responsibility associated with the biblical character with whom I have been named after. My teacher received the name Daniel for myself. Daniel was a prophet who was courageous and fearless in the face of adversity. He was a Hebrew scholar of the the highest order and was well versed in the science of astrology. He was most widely known for his ability to interpret dreams with the help of archangel Gabriel. His certainty in the Lightforce of God was paramount. 

Becoming Daniel has changed my life in the last year. I have become much more open to the world around me and aware of others in way's that I never was before. I feel much more connected to the big picture and willing and able to take on responsibilities that always appeared to be out of my reach. 

I fear less and  jump higher

Thank you for the support. 

Imaginationary Lock Down

I'm Stuck

What does this imply?

Locked out from, wherever I try

I'm looking for an answer

within this month of cancer

My ego in barracade

for sure, a failing grade

I thought i was "connected" that way.

Is it a sign to give in?

pitch my tent and just fin

who measures the win

my ego or my soul?

what really will make me whole?

endlessly I have searched

dreams out there in front, perched

perfectly ingrained

perfectly maintained

perfectly preordained

make other plans? not so much

be present, true to touch

imaginationary muscles

I will flex.

see what is next.

Synergy

Sweat box
Testerone traugh feeding
Seeping slowly
Taking it all in
Push harderSmash disco blasting
Pumping iron, casting
Glances in directions revealing
Swelling mirror reflections
Salute the truth
To your Youth. feeling perfection
sore 

For a moment
of what?
But Atoms split everywhere
Glare dieectly at Shattering specs of light
Flattering Persons
around u
Noticing
Theselves within
Yourself
The ultimate narcissus.

Fortune Teller / Vegas Yeller

Bells and whistles
singing symphonies of fortune slots
Sit there long enough, your brain rots
Spend a little dough
Watch your Debt grow
Or maybe not
Dreams can come true
This is the land
Sweltering dessert sand
Heat that fries your mind
Enticing hips to bump & grind
Feelin the pulse from down below
A sexy fortune, a strange bed fellow
Alas vegas
Sweet and sexy
Vegabond mistress, alluring temptress
You have found love
For this simple moment
Once at mccarran, nobody will know it
Its a pact you have
Between you and yourself
Cher and Bette will never tell
What happens here
You know the drill
Just a good ole time,
plethora of thrill

Martyrdom

Seams to be, no hope
You’re not feeling it - broke
Your entire life has led you to this?
A choice you have to live with?
That's what you think.
That this is it
What you see is never what u get
So much more

 for you  in the wings,

but if u take your bow

it will only appear as it seems.
I wish so much I could help you

Your indication insists, all to do is stew
Help you to turn another corner, though it may be harder

Pick your life up again, instead of being a martyr
around you there is always a hand
people who love you, do you understand?
It doesn’t matter your place in your life now

You CAN pick up, if you allow

Right here where you are

You don’t even have to travel very far

It’s all your choice, what you do

But know that we are here for you. 

Intruders Invadin

Staring off in the other direction

guard off, caught

I'm not present
Don't want to be
I'm fighting; force of my
Chosen captivity
Not interested in another way
I am
Bound
Tight
'round heart
Wrapped unaffected by time
Or place
The evidence is clear
By what's going on
Down
There
Everywhere the energy
Of you
And your essence
So I keep my distance
From intruders
Invading unbeknownst
Pirate brooders
I've arrived.

6 Train Style

Look
Her shirt is disheveled
reveled, held together by
My Style spackle

Tackle those shoes
Who's feeling the communicating
Liberating dispositions, detail by detail
Retail therepay at Gucci -respectively
Collectively. Simply
Divine
But certainly style not
Mine.